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I'm Fine [Single]

by Fisky

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I’m fine.

When they ask if I'm ok I never know what to say
say I’m fine to save us time
but I don’t know what that word means
can’t define, describe de-scribe or deem
equal to anything I feel
I’m starting to feel nothing again
I’m losing touch.
buried so deep for so long
what once felt right now feels wrong
can’t right these wrongs so I write these wrongs
blank pages turn to havens crave and hate them
can’t replace the
in this world of fake
words all I got to face ‘em
every night I write I might ignite a light incite insight
silence gets noisy sometimes
quiet these riots in my mind

I’m fine.

They ask why I keep reliving it like at some point it stopped
I’d give you my two cents but the penny never dropped
I remember the smell of it, the taste and the scent
but its easier to say I’m fine
than explain I’m telling the truth but at the same time I’m lying
isolation has my mind racing
body stays in the same place n
I don’t drink to numb the pain and feel nothing
I drink so I don’t HAVE to feel nothing
just to feel something
but all I end up feeling is regret
they ask about my life
but all it does is remind of what I cant forget
my pen releases words never uttered
can’t cry or weep a game of feeling hide n seek I can’t find the fuckers

I’m fine.

If I leave you blue ticked understand I’m not being a prick
I’m not lost

I just misplaced my shit
I’m not trying to find myself
I recovered me already and surprisingly I was still me
the recipe for the best of me just got lost somewhere in the rest of me
don’t bother pinching to see if I’m dreaming
nowadays everyone’s woke
so why does it seem like we’re all sleeping
nightmares creep in
opinions seep in
but myself I’m critiquing
perception ain’t always reality
so keep ‘em
not everything’s a double meaning
to read between the lines there is no need
if I say I love you or fuck you that is what I really mean
the thing I love most got me feeling trapped
gimme a minute
I’ll be back
just need to readapt

I’m fine.

walked a long path sign posted by my rhymes
walked along and laughed because I’m sick of the crying
walked along and cried because I’m sick of the pride
walked along and sighed because I’m sick of the lies
from the outside it’s all swallowed by my stride
on the inside my soul calls out to no reply
you might see me stumble but never succumbing
I stride like I’m fine because I’m sick of the running
so, am I fine? is the answer yes or no?
ask yourself if you really want to know
how some mornings I wish I hadn’t woken up from the night
how I have violent thoughts but I’m too tired to fight
how I miss my family so much but wish I didn’t
how I wish their memories would stop haunting me and leave
wipe the slate clean delete these slides and photos from my mind
I don’t wanna see them anymore
how it hurts to say those words but I’m finding it hard to breathe
how this has being going on for the best part of my life
had feelings in the past but every time I asked for help
they told me man up, stop dwelling, you can’t afford our help
now I know I need help
but don’t want it out of fear history will repeat itself
we spend so much time trying to heal we forget to live
sometimes living is supposed to hurt

So, to save us time. Yes. I’m fine.

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released July 1, 2021

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Fisky London, UK

Fisky is a Poet, Rapper, Public Speaker, Founder of Mind Over Matter and member of London’s #Flopoet collective mentored by Natalie ‘The Floacist’ Stewart.

Writing has always been Fisky’s therapist. He draws on his twenty years lived experience with addiction and depression to raise awareness and process his own struggles. ... more

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